Song Description

A song about depression, addiction, disillusionment and a longing for meaning in life

Lyrics

I've lost my mind,
And spent every last dime,
On my quest for the truth,
When the truth is a lie.
The only thing that's for certain,
Is I'm gonna fucking burn,
In this eternity cause I'll never die,
And if I do I'll never learn,
That nothing's gonna save me.
Not this bottle, not tonight.
Not a week long binge of coke and speed,
A new haircut or a wife.
Cause there's too many problems,
And not enough time.
There's so many questions,
With no answers there to find.
And I'm rotting out from the inside,
But there's no way to tell.
I got a lover a job a home a life, car keys and a phone,
But I'm not there,
I'm waiting for something that will never come.

There's a reason for my dark obsession,
but you don't wanna hear it,
So I'll try not to let it slip.
But don't ask me if I'm OK,
Have you seen the world out there?
If it doesn't break your heart and make you cry,
Then nothing ever will.
Cause there's no hope left,
The converted are just pretending.
Cause if we can't trust each other,
Then we'll just keep on defending,
Our stupid little lies, we tell ourselves despite what's real.
It's a grandiose illusion we've built,
To keep us underneath the wheel.
And I'm pinned and worn down to nothing.