Song Description

A rap-rock song which discusses the effects of narcissism and depression on a relationship.

Lyrics

On the inside only one thing provides
Some guides my mind divides when I try to decide
To break strides and take sides
Instead I just hide my pride
In the mask that I hide at my bedside

Only one path that I've got to take
Only one day that I've got to make
Only one habit that I got to break
Only one smile that I got to fake

Inner secrets torment and torture my mind
In pursuit of perfection, all I see is decline
My internal design defined a shrine to shine
But in the end, only I am divine


CHORUS:
When I'm talking to you
You gotta hear what I'm saying
TO know the game that I'm playing
Cause you need to know where I stand

I just want to believe
That my whole search is completed
That you are just what I needed
But you need to know where I stand


Since I can't go back I have to just act
On the fact that I hijacked my contract
In the past I was last, life was so fast
Picking out pieces of glass from my grasp

It's the good and the bad and the sad and the mad
That remind this lad of the life that he had
The wife that he left, the loss of each breath
And the debt of regret that would soon abet death

CHORUS


It's untold what the future holds
Maybe more lies and an empty soul
I'm losing control and this goal is getting old
While I waste away looking for a pot of gold

You never can find what's lost in your mind
You spend your whole life looking with some eyes that's blind
And you pine for a sign but your bind is entwined with yourself
You can't find love, when you don't love yourself