Story Behind The Song

My frustration with a loved-one's alcoholism.

Song Description

What I'd like to think a person with an addiction might be thinking on how his or her addiction affects family. My loved-one's addiction is alcohol, but this can apply to any addiction (drugs, women, chocolate, cowboy movies, golf, work, lifestyle).

Lyrics

IT'S FRIGHTENING
(c) 2004 Pam Hanna

Deal with it, my words when things aren't going right
I arm myself for battle and ground you in the fight
Unhealed wounds opened up again last night
I gave you the pain by taking care of mine

Well ran dry for one short hour in time
Looked at things around me, saw a little light
Apologized like countless times before
You pulled away, said you can't take it anymore

CHORUS
It's frightening
This thing I do
Turns our lives upside down
Rips are our hearts in two
It's like circling 'round the drain
Grabbing habit for a rope
I fear it's all that keeps me safe
Can't seem to let it go
It's frightening
So damn frightening

Scared now, it's dark, how can I face the night
Knowing you might leave is killing me inside
One more, that's it, just to help sustain
Then I'll try tomorrow to make things right again

CHORUS

BRIDGE
The sword I wear is my own curse
Can't draw blood, but oh how it hurts
Can't protect myself without losing you
Tomorrow I'll accept the call to wake up and be through

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TAG
It's frightening
So damn frightening