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I said, 'I keep you around to keep me honest, around to keep me clean, shining fluorescent.'
you said, 'as long as you feel ok, as long as you're getting out of bed each day, as long as you're doing your best.'

but what if this is not my best?

I said, 'you hold this isthmus in your hands. it's the only place I can land - I am a prop airplane.'
you said, 'as long as you're showing up on time, as long as they believe that you're really smiling. as long as you're doing your best.'

but what if this is not my best? what if I could do better

you said, 'I wanted just to hear your voice' I said, 'I wanted just to feel you up against me - see baby, I had forgotten.'
you said, 'the birds have been building nests around our porch & in the mornings they keep me up. good god, I wish you were here.'

and we lie on our backs and to roof starts to spin and it's all I can do to keep it inside; and we lie on our backs and the roof starts to spin and it's all I can do not to start crying

I said, 'it must be my foreign blood, I mean, I'm Dutch, I think that they are known for bad behavior, and I just get so low.'
you said, 'as long as your eyes are wide,' you said, 'as long as your throat is open, as long as you're doing your best.'

but what if this is not my best? well I'm gonna die trying.