Story Behind The Song

This is an auto-biographical track.

Song Description

The song is about a man who has escaped from his addictions and how he's still lost in his own mind.

Lyrics

Do you understand feeling powerless obsessions?
I mean substance abusiveness without perception
I never stole from a loved one to kill my cravings
I did ignore my loved ones for misbehaving
For me, the flood of dopamine to all of my brain
Caused a euphoric adrenaline rush I couldn't contain
Unattended and recluse, resided up in my room
So staying up alone was part of my royalty tomb
Christina and I, together with an oil glass lamp
We traveled the seven seas with a first class stamp
Never enjoying the cuisines of our white surroundings
Occasionally getting warped around psychosis dreams
A constant race, no format with a winners pace
Just a heart locked and loaded in a crumbling rate
Self loathing, pin one against the other's own route
Until you swallow up yourself from the inside out

Don't apologize for me for the things I've done
I've put it all behind me now, I'm a stronger son
A better father, a better man, who stands his ground
I'm free from P.M.C. and I'm standing proud
2X

Go ahead and judge me, for my past, decisions I've made
I spent 6 years, in a clouded haze and mind state
Paranoia, depression almost had the best of me
My ability to walk strong helped from killing me
Noticing the devotees and suspects here
Awakened the need for me to get my own mind clear
I saw friends; families loose themselves in the shards
Ignoring self hygiene shuffling sex like cards
For payments, and highs to help un-nourishments
Gauntly faces from sleepless nights and binges
It's pitiful that I subdued myself to that lifestyle
I saw it all, sex, crime, drugs with no denial
Echa sketching sectors for criminal intersections
So we could buy another bag of silly misconception
I don't condone what I did, but I'm glad that it was done
Cause everyday I live wiser and life is so much fun

Don't apologize for me for the things I've done
I've put it all behind me now, I'm a stronger son
A better father, a better man, who stands his ground
I'm free from P.M.C. and I'm standing proud
2X
Some times I just feel so lost...
Some times I just feel so lost..
I'm calibrated with sociopathic tendencies
Sporadically overshadowed by my dependencies
One in the same my vices hold the key
Unlocking the mystery of my own psychology
Theoretic it's speculation of my troubled past
But dealing with the situations I just want to pass
I've conquered, overpowered my inner demons
Advanced past the obstacles then proceeded
I'm still standing in a cage imbedded in my mind
I can't escape with out a pen and a cleaver rhyme
You have your problems and I possess my own
Someday in the future I won't feel so alone
You have your problems and I possess my own
Someday in the future I won't feel so alone

Don't apologize for me for the things I've done
I've put it all behind me now, I'm a stronger son
A better father, a better man, who stands his ground
I'm free from P.M.C. and I'm standing proud
2X

Playlist Creator	Playlist Name	Date Added
Knox	My Top Songs	10/30/2010