Story Behind The Song

This song is an autobiographical tale of my life with my daughters mother.

Song Description

The song starts out how the narrator and the love interrest met and how much of a blessing it is. Then the song turns to how things changed and how the relationship fell apart. Finally ending with him being sorry for the way things turned out.

Lyrics

See I remember when we met like damn I fell hard
I saw the beauty in your eyes and they grasped my heart
I bragged to everyone I knew like this is the one
To bear my children and my love until the dying sun
Months have past I felt like my whole life changed
You were older so I knew I had to mature things
I had a plan back then it was us and the world
Like we could conquer anything we could settle the swirls
I engulfed myself in you and you met my moms
And when you met she immediately embraced you in her arms
Then the day came we were going to have our first child
The first in both our families to have a grandchild
You know I always wanted this, but I wasn't ready
To sacrifice my youth for the future was scary
So like a fool, I walked away with my girl in the womb
Expected everything to work out not now but soon

I know that I hurt you, but you were my life
Everything I ever wanted, you warmed my insides
You were my backbone, the rock I leaned on
And hope that one day I can be strong
2X

We found each other again just in time for the birth
But before that my mother passed away and it hurt
I made a promise on her death bed that you would be my wife
And that I would man up and overcome all our strife
Game day 2-10 of the year 2006
Leia Elise was born and she was perfectly fit
A blessing to you and me like we couldn't believe
For once in my life I felt like I had family
But it wasn't happiness and I knew why
I wasn't prepared at all resented you and you cried
Everything I always wanted was right in front of me
And blind to the mishap I once again let you free
My love never stopped I was simply overwhelmed
Inside I was a child in a fatherhood realm
Because I had to get away so I could be free
And become everything that I needed to be

I know that I hurt you, but you were my life
Everything I ever wanted, you warmed my insides
You were my backbone, the rock I leaned on
And hope that one day I can be strong
2X

I came back in the picture but lost a piece of me
Love was there but the passion we didn't see
The fire we had was missing I blame myself
I failed to compromise I put your love on a shelf
I embraced being a dad and gave it all that I had
I pushed you away from me and the feeling is sad
My drive I held before vanished away
The man I was then dissipated away
A lover not a father, a father not a lover
Never was both and now I lay up under a cover
My ignorance clouded the fact I was stubborn
Drove you away from me your decision is stern
I wished that you knew the truth up in my mind
While you're out having fun I sit and think about time
The wake up call you gave, I cleaned my slate
And if you find other love I'm sorry that I was late

I know that I hurt you, but you were my life
Everything I ever wanted, you warmed my insides
You were my backbone, the rock I leaned on
And hope that one day I can be strong
2X

Playlist Creator	Playlist Name	Date Added
Knox	My Top Songs	10/30/2010