Story Behind The Song

My cowriter brought this one to me. He was in a low spot when he started the lyric. He had such a beautiful melody and an interesting story I jumped right in.

Song Description

Guy loses his wife and turns to alcohol to bury his pain. He decides it is easier to drink himself to sleep everyday than it is to go out and try and get her back....that might end up hurting even more. The only bright spot is he realizes his situation and knows there is a way out.

Lyrics

"Like I Don't Feel At All"
© 2009
R. VanVooren / Jay Brehmer

Headache woke me up, around 1 p.m.
Thought I'd bite the dog that bit me,
Just to try and clear my head
And as I sat there naked, trying to focus on the wall
At a picture of our wedding day,
Back when I had it all

I Cried,... And in my selfish pity
Feeling sorry for myself, No room for no one else
I Tried,...to sort through all the memories
But it always came back, to how I feel right now
And I feel,.... Like I don't feel,... at all

I tried to say I'm sorry, Guess I never found the words
And rather then just search for you,
To see how much you hurt
I found myself a substitute, that I could hide behind
It's easier than dealing with,
All that's on my mind (so I,..)

Cry,... In my selfish pity
Feeling sorry for myself, No room for no one else
And try,...to sort through all the memories
But it always comes back, to how I feel right now
And I feel,.... Like I don't feel,... at all

I don't know if it's the Lord, or maybe it's the fight
But I found out that there's 12 steps, to help me see the light
And it's O.K.,.... Sometimes,.... To,....

Cry,... In my selfish pity
Feeling sorry for myself, No room for no one else
And try,...to sort through all the memories
Even if it just comes back, to how I feel right now
And I feel,.... Sometimes it feels,....
It just feels,.....Like I don't feel,... at all